So the last couple days have been kind of rough. Working with friends is great as long as they don't decide to take offense to your professional side. In all my experience, I've never come across someone who would do everything in their power to stop being you friend. Especially with me! I'm a nice guy! I'm the kind of guy who won't get mad at you when you screw up or stop talking to you because you insulted me. Heck, you could rob me and I would still talk to you (even after I get my stuff back, because trust me, I will get my stuff back). I don't hold anything against people. The way I see it is, we are all learning. Some are in a more advanced class than others but we are all making progress. You don't call a 3rd Grader stupid just because he doesn't know what (a+156x)45/32y equals or what the capital of Russia is.
My friend I work with has decided she doesn't want to like me anymore. Y? I have plenty of theories about it but that's for later. So she keeps trying to tick me off. The more she tries, the better she's getting, unfortunately, and I'm not easily angered, so that's saying something.
The other day, I brought in my HD camera into work to film some stock footage of different model yogurts to create an advertizement video to play on the TVs at work once we lose cable at the end of the month. The sun was going down fast and I was going to need her amazing artistic skills to make one look good while I scouted for a good place to film and set up the camera. I asked her if she could get a nice swirl on a yogurt and put toppings on it so I could film it. She replied with "The yogurt looks like crap. We need to get the red caps back first." (our manager had taken the red caps that go on the bottom of the spouts that give the yogurt that star shape design when it comes out, because she said it would be cleaner. Unfortunately now when the yogurt comes out, it's in a smooth, round column that, with the darker colored flavors, look like a big dog dooky in a cup.) I told her that wasn't an option because our boss said they weren't coming back and she wasn't going to discus it any more. Plus, we would make it look good with the toppings on it. She could have said ok and tried her best to make a nice roundish pile of yogurt after that, or she even could have asked me to show her how to make one if she REALLY couldn't figure it out (it's not like she's dumb, she is a very intelligent person), but instead of trying (because GOD FORBID we be cooperative!), she flat out said "I can't do a nice swirl, not without the caps." At this point, we have probably wasted a good 20 minutes arguing about somone making a freakin' yogurt swirl in a cup, and the sun isn't waiting for us. (The reason the sun was so important is because I had found a setting on my camera that makes the footage 1000x better quality but the trade off is it needs studio style lighting to work and I don't have studio lighting at the store so the only thing we hade that would give us that kind of wattage was that giant star that creates what we call day.) I should have just said "screw it, I'll do it myself", but no, I decided to try and convince her. I guess I kind of wanted her to be a part of this awesome project that we could both look at and say we were proud of. But she wasn't having any part of it. I told her that with or without the caps, making a swirl worked the same way, but she still refused. She could have asked me to show her or at least when she went to "try" and make a swirl, at least put some effort into it. She comes back with a hideous pile of mixed yogurt that it was obvious had no attempt of making any type of circle while dispensing and plops it down on the counter and says "See? I can't do it." Congratulations, you just hit my last nerve.
When you don't want to do something, don't try and serve me a plate of bull and tell me "I can't". Be an adult and tell me the truth, you just don't feel like it. I don't give a crap how confident you are in your ability, if you really don't think you can then ask to be shown how. It's called being cooperative and working as a team, which is what your supposed to be doing on the job anyways!
Kid's, here's a life lesson for you. If you want to go far in whatever job you're in and want to be respected and treated like an adult, DO NOT EVER say "I can't". Find a way to get the job done. If you make "Find a way to get the job done" your motto, you will never be useless and will always be seen as reliable. Management likes employees who do what they are told and don't give excuses about anything. If your given a task, complete it. I don't give a shit what it is, get the freakin' thing done!
Now, granted, she and I are on the same level. We are both assistant managers and only answer to one person, but you wonder why I don't complain about you telling me what to do all the time when "you-know-who" calls it "barking orders" and gets butt hurt over not hearing a "please" at the beginning of every request. It's because I KNOW HOW TO SHARE THE LOAD!!! I NEVER tell you "no" if you need me to do something because I'm here to help keep this machine running smoothly (NOTE: the word "need" there. I will GLADLY tell you "no" if you're just trying to get out of a responsibility. There is no escaping that with me so please don't try. I know you were playing but I'm not gonna budge on that fact. I know you take responsibility for a lot, even more than you should, but work is different. Just do it.)
SO, the argument escalated as emotions flared and buttons were pushed and things were said. I said "I'm asking you to do this simple task because you're an artist. You KNOW how to get beauty out of things!" She replied with "No I don't!" and it just came out. "Then why are you an artist?!?" She took it as if I was insulting her amazing artistic skill (and I will say it again... AMAZING Artistic Skill!!!) but what I was trying to say was "If you didn't think you knew how to bring beauty out of things, then why would you have perused art?" My point was more of "that's a bold faced lie because I have seen your work and even YOU know you're good at that. So don't tell me you don't know how." After I had said that, the argument was over. She went to go work in the back to get away from me and I was left to do my own work out front.
To conclude the story of the yogurt, I made a swirl in the cup, put the toppings on in strategic places to make it look good at the perfect angle, set it up outside, but it was too late. Not only had the sun already gone down, leaving me with a deficiency of light to shoot in high quality, but putting the toppings on, setting it up on the right spot so it would have great scenery, and finding the right angle on it, took so long, it was already melting and looking like a pile of fat-kid vomit after dessert one night. It was a total waste of time. The short window of opportunity I had to shoot footage was taken up by arguing and fighting, because being uncooperative was OH so much MORE fun than helping me get the task at hand finished. She told me the next day she did that "because she could".
Listen, this is me venting (I am allowed to do so) but this does NOT mean that I dislike you because of this. I still think you are a great friend (when your not trying to get a reaction out of me so you have a reason to not like me) and I still have the utmost respect for you and your talents with art. I just hope you mature enough to realize that when your at work, these mind games of yours are inappropriate and do not aid to business in any way. I would much rather you refuse to have fun and just do your job then try and ruin the fun we do have because your feeling guilty for having fun with me instead of your boyfriend, because he's too immature to live in the moment and not let his emotional bull crap bleed over into your relationship.
Your not as mysterious as you think. You're either feeling guilty about it, or your fighting thoughts of being with me because you see that I'm usually a great emotional support and treat you the way you deserve to be treated. Let me put your mind at ease there. You are too old for my taste. You aren't my type and even if you weren't dating my best friend I would still ask to just be good friends. Nothing against you, it's just that I know you aren't the one God's been saving for me. How do I know? Easy, when it comes to girls, that is the one thing in my life I have learned to hear Holy Spirit very well in. There have been many girls I would have LOVED to go out with and probably had a really good chance with but i never went with them (except once... Major mistake) because He made it an obvious "NO." (Visual reference: http://www.lowbird.com/data/images/2011/03/1299943493450.jpg)
STOP, FOR THE LOVE OF GOD, TRYING TO RUIN A PERFECTLY GOOD FRIENDSHIP BECAUSE YOU WANT TO STAY LOYAL TO A SINKING SHIP!!!! You even told me yourself, that your family is starting to see it too! If I could do anything about it, I would, because even though I am still (and always will be) loyal to my oldest friend, I do not want to see you be destroyed all because your scared that if you don't stay with him, no one else will love you. That is BULL CRAP! God has someone AMAZING for you and this man-child isn't it! (Sorry man, but you aren't emotionally stable enough for a relationship. Heck, I don't even think your dad is but that's becoming more and more apparent as time goes on.) Jump ship and let go of your emotions and turn to God for guidance without the influence of how you feel. This hell you have found yourself in isn't a result of you being tested by God, it's because you are blindly following your emotions and calling it God. How do you think your other half's life went to hell so fast? Because his joke of a father is doing the same freakin' thing.
I wish you would read this and just accept it and take my advice, but I know if you read this, it'll make things worse and you'll probably cry and hate me. Well here you go. You wanted a reason to not like me? Here it is. A 4 page rant about the bull crap in recent life.
You wanted to get a reaction out of me? Here it is. Your not going to see me mad outside of this blog so if your so bound and determined to tick me off, keep going! My readers will be getting plenty of new posts a week. All the fruit of your labor will be recorded here for your viewing pleasure, if by some miracle you come across this abomination of a blog post. Hope your happy, 'cause we're in for a MAJOR up hill battle and at least I have an out let to regain my stamina... Do you?
